Young & The Restless Transcript
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Ashley: Get out of my way!
Jack: No! I’m staying right here as long as it takes until you realize this is where you need to be right now.
[ Jack groans ] Voicemail again.
Ash: Come on, ashley. Wake up, please. We’re running out of time.
Ashley: You have to stop!
Kyle: Thank you.
Woman: Yeah.
Summer: Well, hello there.
Kyle: Summer, hey. You meeting someone?
Summer: Mm, no. Just me. Why?
Kyle: It’s a little late past your bedtime, isn’t it?
Summer: Oh, I couldn’t sleep. I’m starting to wonder if it’s a good idea or a bad idea to live upstairs from a bar.
Kyle: Hmm.
Summer: Not having a good night?
Kyle: I’m okay.
Summer: That’s not what I asked you.
[ Kyle scoffs ]
Kyle: I’m not having the best night of my life. No.
Summer: Well… would it make it better or worse if I joined you?
Ashley: Are you gonna let them get away with this? Really? You’re just gonna stand there?
Traci: Honestly, I don’t know what I’m gonna do, ashley, you’re breaking my heart. But we don’t have time for that. We’ve got to find out what’s going on with you.
Ashley: I’ll tell you what’s going on with me. I’m being held hostage in my own home. Now, I can understand this one doesn’t give a damn about me, but you’re supposed to be my sister!
Diane: Ashley, I do care what happens to you. But you are hurting these people who love you by attacking them instead of letting them in.
Ashley: Just shut up! This is abuse. Plain and simple. You say you love me, then get them to back off.
Traci: Jack, it’s too much. It’s too much. This is not what I had in mind when I called you together. It’s tearing her apart.
Jack: It’s killing me, too. What choice do we have?
Ashley: Don’t talk about me like I’m not here!
Traci: Who are you calling?
Jack: I am trying to reach sharon.
Billy: That’s good. She can tell us how to turn this thing around.
Ashley: Well, I could probably tell you that, too, but I guess what I have to say doesn’t matter.
[ Phone rings ]
Jack: Sharon, thank god.
Sharon: Jack, your message sounded urgent. What’s wrong?
Jack: Look, I know it’s late.
Sharon: Look, whatever it is, I want to help.
Jack: Well, we have a bit of a family emergency, and we could really use your expertise. Is there any chance you could come out to the house right now?
Sharon: No problem. I’m on my way.
Jack: Thank you.
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Ashley: Sharon’s expertise? In what? Pouring coffee? Handing out muffins? Why would you bring in another outsider?
Jack: An outsider is exactly what we need right now. Someone with an objective opinion who can help us keep this from escalating any further than it already has.
Ashley: What have I done to you? Why are you so afraid of me? What crime have I committed? All I’m trying to do is live my own life, and it’s just thrown you into this panic!
Billy: Ashley, look, there’s something going on, okay? And I think you know it, too. And– and you’re trying really hard to deny it. I don’t know if you’re scared or you’re embarrassed, but you don’t have to be, okay? We’re your family. We love you. We’re just trying to help you.
Ashley: Don’t try to act like I’m supposed to just think this is, like, normal. When was the last time you were locked in your house, billy? When was the last time you were held against your free will?
Billy: Ashley, I’m not–
Ashley: Don’t talk to me! You’re not listening to me, I’m not going to listen to you.
Ash: We have to stop her.
Ashley: No one’s listening to me! What I say doesn’t matter. You are all so vile and so cruel, and I don’t know what I did to you to make you treat me this way.
Traci: Ashley, I wish that you could hear yourself. See what we see. Hear what we hear. I know you’re struggling. But if you would stop fighting us, we could get to the bottom of this together.
Ashley: It doesn’t matter what I say. It doesn’t matter. You are all believing something that’s not even real, and you’re just waiting for little dr. Sharon to– to show up here and tell you what you want to hear.
Jack: You promised traci you would speak to a professional. This is a way of fulfilling that promise.
Ashley: And I will, jack! I will! Someone of my own choosing, not your ex-wife, the barista!
Billy: Okay. Tomorrow, we will get you a therapist of your own choosing. I promise you that.
Jack: Yes. And our job right now is to keep you safe, to get you through tonight.
Ashley: Okay, sure. Thank you so much. And sharon’s going to help me do that. Sharon. She’s not even a practicing professional.
Traci: But she’s trained in this field, and she can share her thoughts.
Ashley: Oh, she can share her thoughts. Thoughts that matter more than mine. I don’t know who you are. You’re not my family. I will never forgive you for this betrayal. No.
Ash: Ashley, wake up!
[ Ash groans ] Please wake up! She’s freaking out. She’s acting really weird. She doesn’t sound like you, and they know it. If you don’t do something really, really soon, they’re going to send us away to one of those scary places, then I won’t be able to protect you, but it’s got to happen soon! It has to happen soon before it’s too late. Ashley!
[ Ash grunts ] Ashley!
Diane: I know this is breaking your heart, but ashley doesn’t mean what she’s saying. She’s really not herself right now.
Ash: Ashley! Wake up! Uhhh.
Jack: Don’t worry about me. I’m worried about ashley. And you.
Diane: Me? I’m fine.
[ Jack sighs ]
Jack: I don’t know what’s happening with my sister, but there’s no reason you should have to put up with all of this. In fact, if you wanted to spend the night at the club, I would understand that. Maybe it’s a good idea.
Diane: If you want me to go, I’ll go, but I’d rather stay. You and I are in this together. And I meant what I said. If ashley has more rage than she needs to vent at me, I can take it. She’s just so angry and upset. I don’t know if anything productive can come from this. She’s in such a dark place.
Jack: And we have to pull her back from that edge. And I’m not going to let her anywhere near you until she calms down. I am here to protect you. I will always keep you safe. You know that.
Diane: I know that. And I love you for it. But do you really think it’s a good idea to bring sharon into the mix, given how much rage ashley’s feeling? Those two have never exactly cared for each other.
Jack: No, they haven’T. But you’re right. Ashley isn’t herself right now. As much as she hates all of us, maybe she would listen to someone else.
Diane: Yeah, but is sharon even qualified to handle this?
Jack: I trust her. Maybe she can give us some insight as to what ashley’s going through, and we can prepare her for what is next.
Ashley: If you care at all about me, please just get me out of this place.
[ Ashley groans ]
Traci: Ash! Ashley! Ashley!
Billy: Hey, hey, hey, hey! It’s okay. Hey.
[ Ashley grunts ] It’s all right.
Summer: Well, I won’t force you to tell me why you’re not having a good night.
Kyle: Mm. I appreciate that. You won’t force me, but you will just sit there quietly until I offer.
Summer: I assume it’s the same reason I couldn’t fall asleep.
Kylee: Oh. Which is?
Summer: We still haven’t found a nanny for harrison.
Kyle: Yeah. Yeah, that– yeah, that– that search isn’t going well, is it?
Summer: No.
Kyle: We have two adults who both have full-time jobs outside the home, one very active child who needs plenty of looking after, and still no nannies waiting in the wings.
Summer: You would think with all the people we’ve met, we would find at least one person that harrison doesn’t glare at.
Kyle: Hmm, well, there is one person he didn’t hate. It’s just not someone that we’ve interviewed.
Summer: Claire.
Kyle: Eh, kid can’t stop talking about her.
Summer: Funny. Neither can I.
Kyle: Those two really clicked, which… kind of makes sense if you think about it.
Summer: Really? I didn’t see any clicking. At all. Mm.
Kyle: You didn’t? I mean, harrison really liked her. I think it was because she has this childlike excitement about everything the rest of us take for granted, like going to coffee with her mother the first time we met her.
Summer: I didn’t notice.
Kyle: Really? I mean, she was like, “oh, boy, I get to go out in public with my mother like normal people.” I think it was because our childhood was such a horror show.
Summer: Wow, you must have really been paying attention to pick up on all of that from just one meeting.
Kyle: I ran into claire and victoria again at society.
Summer: Oh. Let me guess, my sweet, innocent cousin just couldn’t help but fill you in on her tragic backstory. Life with her certifiably crazy aunt jordan.
Billy: It’s okay.
Jack: Hey. Hey. Hey.
Ashley: Get off me. Get off. I was a little bit dizzy, but now I’m fine. Can you blame me? You’ve been badgering me for hours with this so-called intervention of yours. Well, you got to me. Congratulations.
Traci: Why don’t you come and sit down with me?
Ashley: Stop hovering. You’re sucking the air out of the room. I don’t want to sit down. I want to lie down, alone, in my room. Oh, for god’s sakes. What do you think I’m gonna do? You think I’m gonna jump out the window and shimmy down the drain pipe and make a run for it? I just want some peace and quiet. And for what you’ve done to me tonight, I think it’s the least you can give me.
Ash: Ashley, please wake up! You have to wake up before it’s too late. Come on. Wake up. Wake up.
[ Ash groans ] Wake up!
[ Ash grunts, groans ] Oh! Yeah! Oh! That’s a good girl! That’s a good girl! I knew you could do that. I knew you had it in you. Come on. You know what you got to do. Please! You know what you got to do. Come on, ashley. Get up. Wake up! Please! Ashley. I knew you could do it.
[ Ashley groans ] Please!
Ashley: Oh! Oh!
Traci: Ashley. Oh, my gosh! Ashley.
Jack: Ashley, ashley, we are here for you.
Traci: Speak to us. Come on. What is it?
Jack: All of us are here for you.
Traci: Speak to us. Ashley.
Ashley: What’s happening? What’s going on? If advanced lung cancer
Jack: Ashley… you are here in our home with everyone who loves you.
Ashley: Why?
Traci: Why are you here?
Ashley: Why are you all standing around like something’s wrong with me?
Traci: Well, you got lightheaded, and you were on your way to your room to lie down, and then you fainted.
Ashley: No, I mean before that. I mean, how did I– how did I get here?
Billy: You don’t remember? What– what do you remember?
Ashley: I’m not sure, but I– I know that– that we weren’t like this.
Diane: We were talking, and things had gotten intense or– are you saying that you don’t remember any of that? We need to get her to the hospital.
Ashley: I’m not going anywhere unless you tell me what’s going on. How long have I been here? What did I miss?
Jack: Okay, we will tell you everything you want to know later. Ju– right now, just relax. Take it easy.
Ashley: How am I supposed to take it easy, jack, when you’re starting to terrify me?
Billy: I think ashley’s right. I think we just need to give her a little break so she doesn’t get overloaded. She just had another blackout.
Traci: You told them this happened to me before?
Kyle: Yes. I admit it. After all you found out about claire, I wanted to know more. So when I ran into her and victoria at society, I decided to get more info.
Summer: And?
Kyle: I really got to hand it to her. Claire laid it all out there. Everything she did, everything she went through, she holds a lot of regret and shame. But she’s doing everything she can to make amends. And be part of the newman family.
Summer: Wow. Two whole chats with the girl, and you’re already on her side.
Kyle: Her side? For what?
Summer: I– I don’t know. To– to be harrison’s nanny? Or to try to convince me to tolerate her? Which fyi, if it’s option b, you’re gonna have to get in line.
Kyle: I’m not on her side. But it sounds like someone else is.
Summer: Yeah. She has won over everyone else in the family, but I am just the cold-hearted cousin too skeptical to welcome her with open arms.
Kyle: Okay, everyone in the family is lobbying on her behalf, or… everyone in the world in general?
Summer: You know what I think is interesting?
Kyle: Hmm.
Summer: Who gets forgiven. And for what. And how long it takes. I think it says a lot. I’m actually really bored of this conversation.
Kyle: Hmm.
Summer: What should we talk about now?
Kyle: Okay, I’m gonna say one last thing about claire, and then I promise I will stop.
Summer: Go ahead.
Kyle: When I mentioned how much harrison likes her…
Summer: Yes?
Kyle: …I wasn’t pushing her to be a nanny candidate. It was just an observation.
Summer: Good. Because we both know that we have to agree on harrison’s nanny. Right? And it is never going to be her. All done talking about claire now?
Kyle: Yes. Yes, we are.
Summer: Mm.
Kyle: What would you like to talk about now? Menswear fashion week?
Summer: Well, we could talk about jabot’s summer palette.
Kyle: Hmm.
Summer: Or we could talk about the thing that you don’t want to talk about.
Kyle: And what would that be?
Summer: Whatever’s got you drinking here alone at this hour.
Kyle: Or we could talk about the weather. Did you know, it’s supposed to rain next week?
Summer: Mm. April showers bring may flowers. There, we did the weather. What’s upsetting you, kyle? Is it work? Is it family? Little bit of both?
Traci: Yes, I– I did tell the family that you’ve been having blackouts, but… you knew that already.
[ Doorbell rings ]
Jack: I’ll get that. Thank you for coming, sharon.
Sharon: Oh, no need to thank me, jack. Um, whatever’s going on, I want to help if I can.
Jack: I know therapy is not your focus right now, but any guidance you could give us, I’d be very grateful for.
Sharon: Of course.
Traci: Ashley, I didn’t call the family together to betray your confidence, or for all of us to gang up on you. I did it because it’s what we always do. When one of us is struggling, we all gather together, and we help them through it. And honestly, I thought you were trying to get me off your back because you promised you would get professional help.
Ashley: I– I was planning on it. I was, I swear to you. I– I wasn’t avoiding, I– I don’t remember. Why are you here, sharon? What, is it because of me? Who called her?
Jack: I did.
Ashley: Why, because you think I’m crazy?
Sharon: I am here as a friend, ashley. Nothing more, I promise.
Jack: And what I think, what we all think, is that you have been through so much these last few months, it’s taken something out of you, too much.
Jack: And our concern only seems to make things worse. So I thought maybe having someone more experienced, more objective, might be just the thing to help ease your emotional load.
Ashley: No, I can’t, jack. I’m just– I’m too exhausted, I have to go lay down.
Billy: I think that’s a good idea. I think ashley should go upstairs, and get a little rest.
Ash: I did it! I beat you at your own game. And I won!
Ms. Abbott: You– you have no idea what you’ve done. Auntie, you can’t put that right in the dishwasher.
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Kyle: All right, it’s not a very interesting story, but you asked for it. I am alone in a bar at this hour because I left the office after a late meeting, and decided to stop in for a drink.
Summer: You’re right. That is not very interesting… or true. Kyle, I’m your ex-wife. Twice, actually. I know that you’re not usually sitting alone brooding at a bar unless something is really gnawing at you or you’re avoiding going home. So, which is it?
[ Kyle sighs ]
Kyle: You nailed it, actually. It’s both. I feel guilty even thinking this, let alone saying it.
Summer: But?
Kyle: But I am having a hard time working at jabot… as a subordinate of my mother.
Summer: Oh. I mean, fair enough. Well, I get it.
Kyle: Clearly you do not.
Summer: Yeah, no, not really, since you were the one that pushed for this in the first place.
Kyle: I was being noble and self-sacrificing. You know, “go, mom.” The way this is playing out, though, she was nowhere near ready to take on the position of co-ceo. And I was not ready to watch her blow the opportunity of a lifetime.
Summer: Well, you’ve held that position in the past. So if anybody knows what goes into it, it’s you. And this is your mom we’re talking about. So I know you were pulling for her. But if it’s your opinion that she’s in over her head, I’m sure you’re not alone in that. Have you talked to jack?
Kyle: He doesn’t see it or doesn’t want to. And it’s causing a lot of tension between mom and me.
[ Summer sighs ]
Summer: After working with my mom at marchetti, I can sympathize, believe me.
Kyle: I mean, when i discreetly try to clean up after a mistake she’s made, I’m the jerk who’s overstepped or looking for fault where there is none. And it’s not just that she’s screwed up, it’s that… I’m making her look bad. And make it clear, I’m the one keeping an eye out, saving the day. Honestly… she’s not wrong.
Jack: You know what? Billy’s right, I think we have stressed you to the point of exhaustion. That’s on us, and I apologize. Why don’t you go upstairs, get some rest, and know we all love you very much.
Sharon: Maybe one of you should go with her.
Traci: Um, I will do it. Come on, ashley, let’s go upstairs, and get you tucked in.
Jack: Here we go.
[ Whispering ] Thank you. Okay, I played along, because you seem to have a reason to want ashley out of the room. Why would you not want her to talk to sharon?
Billy: I just think it’s fair that sharon… knows what ashley’s been going through before she goes up there and talks to her. And I think I may know what’s going on.
[ Ash blows a raspberry ]
Ash: Don’t be such a sore loser, you were making a big fat mess of everything.
Ms. Abbott: I had everything under control except for one tiny, little setback. You should have let me stay in control so I could finish this thing. The most dangerous thing for ashley is to be around those people that are questioning her, and doubting her.
Ash: You are way more dangerous than they are.
Ms. Abbott: They don’t know what’s right for her, stupid. They think they do, but they’re wrong. I’m the only one that can protect her, and make things right again.
Traci: Ashley, look what I found in your closet, oh, my gosh, do you remember this? This is the quilt I made you for your 21st birthday. I had no idea you still had this.
[ Laughs ] Here we go.
[ Ashley sniffling ] I’m so glad that I finally get to do this for you for a change. Do you remember all those nights you used to tuck me in when we were little girls?
[ Chuckles ] You would sneak into my room after everybody else was asleep.
[ Sighs ] We would talk until way past our bedtimes about all the dreams we hoped to have that night. For me, it was always the family I wanted to have when I grew up, you know, and raising ponies.
[ Laughs ] And for you, you always wanted to grow up to be a professional go-go dancer and a marine biologist. Do you remember, ashley?
[ Ashley sobbing ]
Ashley: I’m so scared. Traci… I need help.
Traci: I’m here, honey, it’s– I’m here, aww.
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Summer: Kyle, you’ve worked so hard to accept your mom back into your life, and you’ve finally accomplished that. You’re trying to show her up now after being so supportive–
Kyle: I hate feeling all this resentment. I mean, she’s my mother. I love her, but every time I try to move on, let it go, it just seems to get worse.
Summer: Can I be honest? I kind of had a feeling something like this would happen, the moment that I heard that jack promoted her.
Kyle: How the hell did you know that?
Summer: Because I know you. And I’m sure you did have the best of intentions when you pushed for your mom to take the position that should have been yours. And who knows, maybe you wouldn’t be feeling so much resentment if she were nailing the job, but… she’s not. And how could she? Let’s face it, she didn’t exactly get it based off of her resume.
Kyle: Well, she has some qualifications. The biggest one being my dad likes working with her.
[ Laughs ] Depending on her, he doesn’t have to share power. She’s happy being second position as long as I’m a distant third.
Summer: Great, so this is working out for jack now, but can’t last forever. Not that jack would ever admit that.
Kyle: Yeah, that’ll never happen. So I’m stuck. Back off and let her screw up, which will hurt the company, and it’ll drive me nuts, or do I try to clean up after her in some more low-key way? I– I don’t know what to do.
Summer: Okay, those are not real options. The only choice you have… walk away before you reach a breaking point, or you stand up. You prove to everyone what they already know. That it’s you, not diane, who deserves to be jack’s co-ceo at jabot.
Ms. Abbott: You stupid little bitch. You’ve destroyed all of my hard work. Thanks to you waking ashley up, her family thinks the only way to protect her is to send her to fairview. And what do you think happens to us, powerless? And all of our efforts to save her from tucker are gone. You think it was tough being chained to a cot? You just wait. You just wait until you find yourself all alone, in a corner, wrapped up tight in a straightjacket. You ruined everything!
Jack: It was a fraught situation that none of us intended.
Billy: Ashley was angry. She was combative.
Diane: She claimed that we refused to listen to her.
Billy: And that the whole evening was a betrayal.
Jack: She accused billy and me of holding her hostage when we didn’t allow her to leave.
Sharon: And then she had no memory of it?
Jack: No, no, didn’t even remember how she got here or why we were gathered in the first place.
Billy: Hey, how is she?
Traci: Poor thing, she’s so drained emotionally and physically. She went to sleep pretty quickly.
Jack: Well, good for her. I’m sure it helped that you were there with her, thank you.
Traci: Thank you, I hope so. So they’re getting you all caught up?
Sharon: Yes, I’m sure there’s a lot more to the story, but I get the gist of it. Yes, I’m really sorry for what ashley and all of you are going through. I know how terrifying it must be. Um, you said before that she thought you were trying to lock her up, so she’s refused to speak with a professional?
Traci: Well, tonight I think that would be true, but before, when ashley was more herself, she wanted to get help. These– these blackouts are terrifying her.
Sharon: She’s having blackouts?
Jack: Uh, we were about to get to that.
Traci: Yes, they are frightening her, of course. Uh, but she was out all night, and couldn’t recall a thing. She promised me that she was going to go see a specialist.
Sharon: But then she didn’t follow through.
Traci: She doesn’t even remember now why she didn’T. It’s as if we’re dealing with two ashleys.
Billy: Or maybe it’s more than that. Hellmann’s real mayonnaise.
Kyle: It’s a bold move. Are you telling me to turn on my mother?
Summer: I also said you could just walk away.
Kyle: Uh-huh.
Summer: Believe it or not, my opinion of diane has softened since she first got to town. I mean, will I ever completely trust her? We both know the answer to that.
Kyle: Yes, yes, we do.
Summer: Whatever, go ahead, and say it, I’m the skeptical one that doesn’t trust easily, whether we’re talking about ex-mothers-in-law or crazy cousins.
Kyle: Oh, I was not going to say that at all.
Summer: Yes, I did think from the jump that diane should not have taken this job. What she should have done is turned down jack’s offer, and insisted that he gave the position back to you. I mean, to take a job that she’s not even remotely qualified for, and to take it from her son, no less? It– it was self-serving and arrogant. And kyle, it was doomed to fail from the start. Whether jack knows it or not, I know it, and so do you. With as much as jabot means to all of the abbotts, can you really afford to have diane in this position of power without the ability to handle it?
Kyle: You’re right. You’re right, this is never going to work. If I don’t do something, I will suffer. The company will suffer, and so will the family. There’s no way around it. I either walk away, or take what should have been mine in the first place.
Jack: Wait, that’s what you think? That ashley splintered? That we’re dealing with dual personalities?
Billy: I’m definitely not gonna diagnose ashley, okay? I’m not going to do that, but… I think it’s pretty clear that we all witnessed two very different personas here tonight, right? I mean, even the threat to go after tucker. Ashley apparently referred to herself in third person. I had a very odd run-in with her at society where I walked away from that, thinking that I just had a conversation with a teenager, okay? And I didn’t want to make a big deal out of it, because I didn’t want to project my own experience onto her.
Traci: Your own experience?
[ Billy sighs ]
Jack: Might as well go ahead, and tell her.
Billy: Okay, um, a few years ago, I went through a pretty dark period. And I was– I was blacking out. And I would lose whole chunks of time. And I was out and about, you know, while these blackouts would occur, and– and I was not doing good things.
Traci: When was this, billy?
Billy: It was years ago, but it was after delia’s death, and… the truth is, I thought I had dealt with everything. But I– I hadn’t, and I was hallucinating, seeing delia’s ghost.
Traci: Oh, billy.
Billy: I was getting into bar fights. There was one– one particular time that I woke up in the chancellor mansion with no idea how I got there, what I was doing there. There was another… really bad night that I’m not gonna get into. But I was still blaming adam for delia’s death, and I wanted nothing more than to hurt him, to, uh, get my revenge.
Sharon: Billy, if you need to take a moment…
Billy: It’s okay, it’s just– look, I got some very serious therapy. And– and they treated me for dissociative identity disorder. And I’m lucky, because I got help. And I honestly don’t know what would’ve happened if I didn’t, I know one thing for sure, victoria would’ve banned me from seeing the kids, there’s no doubt about that. And she would’ve been right to do it.
Jack: But you did the work. You found your way to the other side of it, and I will forever be proud of you for it.
Billy: Look, ashley’s stronger than I am, okay? And we all love her so much, and we’re all here for her, so I know, I’m telling you right now, she’s gonna be okay.
Jack: So what do you think, sharon, you think there’s a chance this is even a possibility?
Sharon: Billy is absolutely right. There are similarities. But none of us can diagnose ashley, including me. Um, it could be did. But there are other possibilities. And this is far too serious for guesswork, I am going to make some calls first thing in the morning, and get you a list of referrals. Ashley needs to see a professional right away, obviously.
Jack: Thank you, sharon. We are so grateful, listen, the ashley we saw tonight is going to fight us every step of the way. How would you suggest we get over those hurdles?
Traci: No, I don’t think so, jack, I promise you, that ashley I took upstairs, and tucked into bed, she will go along with this, 100%. She wants help, she’s ready. Our sister is in there. I just know it. I tried to reach in, and find her, but I couldn’T. It– it’s like she’s lost. And I have never seen her so fragile or– or so terrified. We’ve got to help her before it’s too late.
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