Bold & The Beautiful Transcript
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Brooke: I’m just so ashamed.
Ridge: Don’t be.
Hope: Alcoholism is a disease. No guilt, okay? None.
Brooke: Honey, I let you down. I let myself down.
Ridge: Because you had a drink? No, you didn’t let anybody down. All right?
Brooke: It was more than just one drink. I fell back into my old habits and I kept pouring and pouring. And… I don’t even how I made it to bed that night. I don’t know why I lost my willpower. I don’t know what drove me to drink.
Taylor: Huh. A weird vibe from hope?
Steffy: Yeah. Acting concerned about brooke because of new year’s eve.
Taylor: Hm. What about it?
Steffy: Well, dad wasn’t home. Brooke was all alone. And hope says that brooke was pretty affected by it. I know, right? It just seems so, so weird. But hope is really worried about brooke because she hasn’t been the same since that night. And hope has no idea why.
Bill: So, she really liked it. You’re not pulling my leg.
Liam: Are you kidding me? You saw her face light up at christmas. She loves it. It’s like her new favorite stuffed animals. Or stuffed… currency, I guess. I don’t know. She’s napping with it right now. Where do you get it?
Liam: Where did you find it?
Bill: Oh, oh, ah. Well, I found it on–
Liam: Oh my god.
Bill: Okay, fine, fine. I didn’t actually find it. I had my assistant… do my shopping. And by the way, this one does a much better job of shopping than alison ever did.
Liam: This one does a much better job? This one does. You don’t know her name, do you?
Bill: Of course, I know her name. Her name is–
Liam: It’s wooo–
Douglas: Oh hey, dollar bill.
Bill: I love this kid.
Liam: What’s up?
Douglas: I think the wifi is out.
Liam: Ah, well, guess what? Perfect timing because screen time is up. And plus, I think I see a soccer ball out there with your name on it.
Bill: Later buddy.
Liam: Have fun or at least try.
Bill: Anyway, I’m not here to talk about names and presents.
Liam: Ah yes. I know I just got off the phone with wyatt. He said–
Bill: I’m not here to talk about eye on fashion either. I’m here for you. Things have been crazy at work. We don’t get much one on one time. But I will make time for it, if you need me. I will make time for you.
Liam: Well, thank you. And I know.
Bill: So, how are you son? Really. Things okay with you and hope, now that that convict, deacon sharp, is back in her life?
Liam: YeaH. I’m not really sure how to answer that. Yes, we’re okay. No, it’s not easy.
Bill: How could it be? Hope’s making a terrible decision and dragging you into it with her.
Liam: Believe me, I’m still extremely weary of deacon. And I’m just, uh… I don’t know, I’m just trying to be supportive of my wife because I know that’s what hope needs right now. So.
Bill: Ah liam, hope is going to learn the hard way, yet again, that wherever deacon, that two bit con man goes, trouble follows.
Taylor: Maybe brooke is mad about ridge not making it home. I mean, I would– I would hope not. I mean, clearly, she knows that he’s running a company. Sometimes, that means–
Steffy: No. Hope claims brooke wasn’t upset about that.
Taylor: If hope is sensing something, saying that brooke hasn’t been the same… upset or not, ridge’s absence clearly triggered something in brooke.
Ridge: It doesn’t matter why it happened. Important thing is you told us, and you want help.
Hope: That’s right. One day at a time. You came forward, you opened up.
Brooke: I called my sponsor too. But, why wasn’t I able to fight this urge? It’s something I’ve been able to do for so long and… what made me slip up this time?
Hope: Are you sure you don’t know why? Was there some underlying reason?
Brooke: No. No, I honestly don’t know.
Ridge: We’re also sure that deacon had nothing to do with this?
Brooke: Deacon. Why even bring him up? I already told you that I’m the only one to blame here, so–
Hope: You know, maybe it’s my fault. You know, I’m the one that’s been so vocal about wanting my dad in my life. Maybe added a lot of stress and made you want to drink.
Brooke: Honey, don’t think this has anything to do with you.
Ridge: And I’m not– I’m not saying that. I didn’t say that you were adding stress. It’s– deacon is the only thing that’s new around here, right? So, did he say something? Did he rattle you in any way?
Hope: No. I was there the entire night. He didn’t do anything like that.
Brooke: Yeah, no. Deacon was fine. Nothing was said.
Ridge: All right. Let’s leave that alone for now. What do we do? What’s next?
Brooke: Well, I definitely think that I need to go to a meeting, as soon possible.
Ridge: Okay. I’ll go with you.
Brooke: No, ridge. You don’t have to do that.
Ridge: I want to. I want to be by your side.
Hope: And I’m here too, mom. Anything you need. I just I hate that I left you all alone on new year’s eve. If I had known that you were struggling, I would have stayed.
Brooke: Honey, please put that out of your mind. Please.
Ridge: How would you find a meeting? Is there an app? There something– I don’t know.
Brooke: Why don’t you go get my purse and I’ll look one up, okay?
Brooke: Thank you. Thank you, sweetie.
Hope: Mom, you may have been alone on new year’s eve, but you’re not alone now, okay?
Brooke: Oh, honey, I love you.
Hope: Love you.
Steffy: Hope’s not the only one noticing something off with brooke. Dad mentioned it too.
Steffy: Yeah. He said that she hasn’t been the same since he got back.
Taylor: Well, it sounds like it really is about his absence that night. Consciously or not, it sounds like she’s holding it against him.
Steffy: Dad’s absence… or is it deacon?
Steffy: Yeah, hope invited him to the party.
Taylor: The plot thickens.
Steffy: This whole deacon situation has caused dad and liam so much grief. They deserve better.
Liam: This is only going to go one of two ways, either hope is right and deacon has changed. In which case, you know, okay, great. I’m happy to be wrong. Or–
Bill: You’re not wrong. Deacon is going to cause all kinds of damage. Look, we both know how this is going to go down. Hope’s degenerate father… is going to show his true colors. He can’t help himself. Now, before you start lecturing me, I just want to tell you that I came here–
Hope: No. Nothing to say. I know how you feel. Now, can I have some alone time with my husband?
Bill: As I said, I’m here for you. I’m here for both of you. When the inevitable happens.
Liam: Thanks, dad.
[ Hope sighs ]
Liam: Well, he means well.
Hope: Not when it comes to my father. And frankly, I don’t really care about what bill thinks is inevitable. So.
Liam: Hey, hope. What’s wrong?
Hope: It’s my mother.
Ridge: You got this. We hit the bike trails every weekend
Steffy: I do think something’s wrong with brooke, something major.
Taylor: Yeah. She’s keeping it to herself, that can’t be good. That’s true. I hope she gets some support… and soon.
Hope: I felt like something has been off with my mom ever since new year’s eve.
Liam: Well, what do you mean by off?
Hope: Well, it’s just… she’s been on edge. You know, she hasn’t been herself and I’ve been trying to figure out what’s wrong.
Liam: I mean, ridge didn’t come home that night like she expected him to. Could just be that.
Hope: No, I mean she might have gotten temporarily upset about that. But this… this feels like something deeper and… then I got to thinking that maybe it does have to do with my dad. And maybe she does resent me.
Liam: I mean, your mom could never be resentful of you, but go on.
Hope: Well, I have been pushing really hard for my dad to be a part of my life and that is someone who my mom has tried really hard to– to put in the past and forget about and… maybe I am asking too much of her.
Liam: You should talk to her. She’ll open up.
Hope: Well, I don’t have to because I walked in on ridge and my mom having a very… intense conversation.
Liam: Like an argument? Were they arguing?
Hope: No, no, but it was emotional. And my mom has been hiding something since new year’s eve and I knew it. I should have stayed. I should have had you put the kids to bed. And–
Liam: Okay, stop, stop. What’s going on?
Hope: She drank, liam. After we left that night… my mom drank.
Brian: And there I was, watching my brother pass around the eggnog, trying to pretend like I wasn’t salivating. But… what was I? Practically drooling. Telling myself, why not just take a sip? Have one cup. Or two. Or 20? But I didn’T. Thanks to my sponsor.
Sponsor: Proud of you, brian.
Brian: I imagine I’m not the only one that the holidays were tough for. Anyone else ready to share? Perhaps, one of our new faces.
Brooke: Um. Hello. I’m brooke and I’m an alcoholic. Nope
Steffy: If something’s going on with brooke, it’ll affect dad.
Taylor: Possibly or whatever it is, it could just go away.
Steffy: Mom, this is brooke we’re talking about. When she’s in trouble, everything blows up in her face. And who’s the one that picks up the pieces? It’s dad. I’m just glad you’re back in town because I don’t think it’s going to be long until dad needs someone to lean on.
Liam: Whoa, you serious? Your mom, she drank on new year’s?
Liam: I am sorry. I didn’t even know she was tempted. Everything seemed normal.
Hope: She doesn’t even know why she had the desire. But after we left, she… she caved and she opened up the vodka.
Liam: Oh my god, hope. I’m so sorry.
Hope: Yeah, I am, too. I’m just, I’m mad at myself for not realizing how vulnerable she was that night. If I had noticed something that night, I could of–
Liam: Okay, no, no, no. Wait, wait, wait. Wait, the one thing that you cannot be doing right now is blame yourself. We all thought ridge was on his way home and that they were going to have a lovely evening together. And even so, well, it’s not like you can’t leave your mom alone. She went years and years without drinking. Okay, so please do not stress yourself out right now by– by thinking you were supposed to know that she would suddenly relapse. That is not your responsibility.
Hope: I know that. It’s just, it’s sad. Knowing now that she needed help, that she was all alone, probably staring at that bottle, trying not to drink. But then she gave in. She didn’t even come down here to the cabin. She didn’t call us. I left my mom all alone on new year’s eve.
Liam: Well, we’re all here now. All of us, including ridge, for whatever she needs.
Hope: He was being so caring and supportive. He’s actually taking her to a meeting right now.
Liam: Good. That’s great. See, that’s great. Your mom’s got support. She’s got resources. She’s got a ton of people in her life who love her and will do anything for her. It’s good.
Hope: I know I should be… happy about that, but I can’t help but worry. I mean, all these years of sobriety, just… so, I just need to figure out, you know, what changed. There–there had to be a reason. There had to be something. There’s something there that I have missed because why– why would it happen now?
Liam: Now, listen.
Douglas: Mommy, is everything okay?
Brooke: I… had a bit of a relapse.
Brian: If you aren’t ready.
Brooke: No, no, it’s okay. I think it’d be good for me to talk about it. This is my husband, ridge.
Ridge: Yes. Yes, I’m ridge, I’m not an alcoholic, but I’m married to one and… I’m going to see her through this.
Brian: A relapse? So, you’ve gone through this before?
Brooke: Ah. Yeah, yeah, I’ve had my moments. I mean, for the most part, I had everything under control. I mean. I’ve gone to meetings through the years. Here and there, and… I’ve been in recovery for a long time. So, this just kind of came out of nowhere.
Brooke: I mean, everything was fine. It was new year’s eve–
Brian: A problematic holiday.
Brooke: Well, maybe for some people, it could be, yes. I could understand that. But for me, it wasn’T. And I was drinking non-alcoholic champagne. And I wasn’t even thinking about the real stuff. We’re just having a beautiful night. It’s my daughter and my grandchildren and her husband, her father. It was like a normal holiday. There were noisemakers, and we’re just celebrating. The kids we’re having a great time and then they went upstairs to watch a movie. Well, they fell asleep and that’s when everybody left. And I was just there. I was home waiting for my wonderful husband to get back so we could celebrate the new year together. But he called and said that um, he was going to be delayed. And that’s when…
Brian: And what?
Brooke: When… it just switched. Inside of me, I just had this, this overwhelming feeling to drink. To drink real alcohol. I don’t know where it came from. Honestly, I just… I reached for the bottle of vodka and I poured myself a glass, and I just– I just slugged it back. It’s like I had already been drinking. I… I mean, all those years in recovery and…
Brian: You said you were alone.
Douglas: Mommy, what’s wrong?
Hope: Oh, it’s nothing, sweetie.
Douglas: You seem sad.
Hope: Well, I–I am a little.
Liam: Yeah, but it’s okay to be sad sometimes, right?
Douglas: What are you sad about?
Hope: Oh, it’s just something to do with grandma. But it will be okay.
Douglas: I saw grandma kissing santa claus.
Douglas: I saw grandma kissing santa clause.
Liam: Hey, buddy. Not right now.
Brian: When your husband was away on business, your daughter left with her kids, so you were all alone.
Brooke: We’re going to need to just keep this secret, deacon. Alone.